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deskitty
deskitty
Des
Fri, Dec. 5th, 2003 11:30 am
Home sick. (but not homesick)

Woke up this morning feeling nauseous and generally overstressed. Got out of bed, took a shower, got on AIM and immediately had Tesko tell me to get back in bed.

I contemplated breakfast, and realized just how right he was.

So I did. And now I'm going to miss both classes (already missed one, second one is in a half hour). And have a 4-day "weekend" (involving coding, studying and generally cleaning up) before my 7 AM midterm on Wednesday.

Got out of bed again maybe an hour ago, and have been laying around on the futon letting my brain wander. Meditating, I suppose, although certainly nothing that formal. Haven't even bothered getting dressed or eating anything yet. :p

Today's gonna be a weird day.

-- Des

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teskomayaku
http://minty.isurf.ca
Fri, Dec. 5th, 2003 11:56 am (UTC)

kinda eerie wasnt it?


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deskitty
deskitty
Des
Fri, Dec. 5th, 2003 12:10 pm (UTC)

...maybe.

It's all your fault anyway.


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northing
northing
North
Fri, Dec. 5th, 2003 12:48 pm (UTC)

Meditating is the oposite of letting your brain wander. It's all about emptying your brain of thought completely. It's also really hard to do. I can't just sit quietly and observe without thinking a single thought for more than a few seconds. I'm under the impression that getting good at it can be very beneficial, however. I'll keep working on it.


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deskitty
deskitty
Des
Fri, Dec. 5th, 2003 12:56 pm (UTC)

I always understood it to be clearing your mind, keeping it clear, and observing--without judging--every little thought/impression/input that passes through, then gently nudging it out to clear the mind again.

This wasn't exactly what I was doing, but it was close to it. The thoughts were staying for a bit longer than perhaps they should have, and were clearing out on their own. But my mind was still blank most of the time.

Of course, whenever my mind blanks, it usually sends me to sleep (or the brink of sleep), because there's nothing for it to do. So I've never been able to remain fully conscious while trying to meditate (at least, if I'm doing the thought part correctly).

To put that in terms of Intel architecture, instead of executing a nop loop, it executes an hlt, which shuts itself off and waits for the next interrupt. ;P


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happy_christian
happy_christian
Stephanie
Fri, Dec. 5th, 2003 06:19 pm (UTC)

So you've been nakie?

Okie, sorry.. *sighs* I'm just being a pain in the ass right now.


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