April 7th, 2003


I just got home... (Updated)

...to find the remains of my half-eaten breakfast sitting on my desk, where I left it this morning. Papers are piled in the corner, beneath the lamp next to the inflatable chair. Dishes, not done since Thursday, lay piled up in the sink.

My home directory is a disaster...checked-out copies of CVS are lying around in odd places, I haven't committed any notes from my classes since last Wednesday, and I don't even know why I have half that stuff checked out. Spica's initscripts are likewise a mess...I never can tell from one boot to the next whether it will start wlan0, ipsec, both, or neither. It also insists on fscking one partition (I haven't figured out which) on every boot.

I haven't bought my books yet for next quarter...nor have I done any of the assigned homework or reading. Yet I still find time to stare at a computer screen and do...something. I'm not sure exactly what.

Thanks to another bout of insomnia, I got 4.5 hours of sleep last night.

If I may quote myself (and probably others who find themselves in similar positions), "what the fuck am I doing?"

Update 22:10 PST: I did the dishes. Now I'm feeling a little better...a little more "in control" of my life (ha).

-- Des
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